I Wanna Go Outsideeeeee.. In The Rainnnnnn...

Nobody told you to try to find the end of that rainbow. U can only blame yourself for gettin` lost. Even when someone was willin` to try and find you, you didn`t wanna be found. There`s only so much one person can do. Only so much they`re willin` to put up with. After a while we give up. But then it`s OUR fault right? Yea sure, if you say so. These little Cupid games are only fun for so long. After a while I don`t feel like playin` anymore. So it`s either take it to the next level or just move on. "Move on" seems to be more like what I`ve had to do lately. But eh, things don`t always go as planned so I shouldn`t be complainin`. It`s just one of those days I guess. Things start to get to me. I start to get tired of dealin` with bullshit. But it`s "live and learn" right?

Music Is My Life

Or at least it`s startin` to feel that way finally lol. Been a productive couple of nights in the studio these past 2 days. Now I just gotta keep it rollin`. Bein` in the booth is a good way to let off some steam and get my mind clear. It`s either that or stick to weed and liquor every night. I prefer makin` beautiful music. Maybe ugly music sometimes, but fuck it lol. My job cuttin` back on my hours. So I`m gettin` a lotta free time. Not necessarily a good thing when it comes to money. But hopefully it`ll work out for the better. Gives me a lot more time to write and record. Before these last 2 weeks I felt like I was slackin` on my music. Not a good thing at all. Feels dope to get back in the groove of things. Good looks to Backwards and the squad comin` through on the late nights for the studio sessions. I haven`t drank since last Friday! And it ain`t even been hard not to do. All it takes is bein` broke so I can`t go to the store to buy any liquor lol. But yea, I think it`s definitely time to cut down on the drinkin` anyway. Shit was gettin` serious for a while. A nigga need to cool out. Ima 24 this year. And it feels like I haven`t accomplished much in life yet. My boy K.C. just brought that to my attetntion last night. Pac was 25 when he died. That`s only 2 years older than I am. And look at everythin` that fucker did in his short time. I need to get on the fuckin` ball. It ain`t time to procrastinate on shit like "oh, that can wait". Nah, fuck that. The time is now or never. That`s the mind frame I have to be in. If not, then Ima just be a regular day job havin` nigga my whole life. I ain`t tryna do that. I`m tryna get further than that. And it`ll only be my fault if I don`t. I can`t blame anybody else for holdin` me back. Well I mean I can, but that`s just me tryna blame some else besides self. That`s the bitch way out. But I`m done ramblin` for now. Got a few things I needa do, so Ima get those out the way. Not sure what the days gonna bring after that yet. But we`ll find out. Peace.