Ever Been A Part Of Somethin` Bigger Than Yourself?...

Was watchin` the Temptations movie the other day and that line stood out to me. It`s deep if you look at it and actually think about it. Like us as humans are some complex ass people lol. Just a single person is complex. There`s many different parts and pieces to each and everyone of us. Like we`re all our own puzzle. But on top of that, even if we could complete ourselves and put the final piece down, then we only just start to become a single piece in a much larger puzzle. And even though that`s the case, it`s hard to think that I can fit in with a larger scheme. I`m the typa cat that likes to keep my distance because when I don`t I usually end up regrettin` it. I might have lost y`all with that, but go back and re-read it. I`m sure it makes a little sense at least lol.

So the Holidays are here huh? One of `em just passed us by. Now it`s time to bring in the new year. That`s somethin` to be excited about. I hope y`all stick to your resolutions and do your best to get accomplished whatever you`re settin` ahead of you. I got a lot of tightenin` up to do myself. And the only thing that`s gonna hold me back is me, no matter how much I try to lay the blame on someone or somethin` else.

Hope all of you had a good Christmas. Spent time with your family, friends and loved ones. That`s what should be important on these holidays. Not presents or bein` disappointed because you didn`t get what you wanted. I got to spend time with my fam that`s around. And that`s what matters. For those of you I couldn`t see, hope everythin` went good for y`all. But really I couldn`t ask for more. I mean there`s a few things that I could ask for, but I won`t get into that right now. I`ll save the depressive stuff for another blog lol. But on that note, hope y`all have a good time bringin` in the new year if I don`t drop by here before then. Until next time you jerks...

Life`s Full Of Ups and Downs...

... but what`s funny is when I think that I`m up is when I feel the most down. I`m a fucked up individual like that I guess lol. It`s a weird thing to try and explain. It`s an even weirder thing to try and come to terms with. But what don`t kill you, makes you stronger. Like you haven`t heard that sayin` before. Tsk tsk Nah. Be original already. Anyway what`s up to whoever reads the bullshit I be writin` on here. I doubt anybody does lol. I more do this for myself. Helps me vent. Makes me feel better at the end of the day. And to prove it. I haven`t wrote anythin` on here in a looooong ass time. And I am now. Already feelin` better than I was lol. I need some help. Seriously, I think I do lol. Nah, I`m lyin`. I`m perfectly fine. Sexy even. But I`m tryna reach that "beautiful" level. Bein` sexy or fine is good and all. But it`s not too fulfilling. I need somethin` more. But at the same time I feel like I have everythin` I need. For the time bein`. Not that I`m tryna complain or anythin`. I just come off that way a lot. Can`t help it, sue me. I`m so dyin` to get away from this place again. My bad moods/depression have only gotten worse since I last talked about not wantin` to be here anymore lol. I really think I am an emo ass muh fucka. At least a semi emo ass muh fucka lol. I know how to hid my feelin`s pretty good so it prolly doesn`t show on a day to day basis. Couple of things have been botherin` the past few weeks. Around the time that my pops died so that`s been on my mind. The little one been workin` a lot so ain`t been able to see her much. Bills and not havin` money been a killer lately. And everythin` happenin` in sync with each other just makes for a shitty mood/depressed me. But it ain`t like I ain`t been here before. I`ll be aight. But aight you jerks. I`m outta here. I`ll hopefully be tunin` in more often. Dunno why I stopped updatin` this thing. Until next time you beautiful people...